Lima

Okay. I'm just gonna be straight bout this.
I'm tired.
So tired of being myself.
So tired of thinking the same things over and over again.

Why?
Don't ask. I guess you've already figured it out.
It's so funny because a few days ago, i said to my best buddy to keep her chin up no matter what.
I think i said it more to myself than to sooth her worries.
I think i said it just to sooth mine as well, although it never would.

Sometimes i wonder,
how long should i be like this?
Forcing myself to fake a smile, a laugh in my everyday life?
For how long should i wait?
For my life to be as i expected?
I guess they are all rhetoric..

Is it true, that in a real life,
there's no happy ending?