Grow Up With Me

“Grow up with me

Let’s run in fields and through the dark together

Fall off swings and burn special things and both play outside in bad weather

Let’s eat badly

Let’s watch adults drink wine and laugh at their idiocy

Let’s sit in the back of the car

Making eye-contact with strangers driving past making them uncomfortable

Not caring, not swearing, don’t fuck

Let’s both reclaim our superpowers

The ones we will have and lose with our milk teeth

The ability not to fear social awkwardness

To panic when locked in the cellar, still sure there’s something down there

And while picking from pillows each feather

Let’s both stay away from the edge of the bed, forcing us closer together

Let’s sit in public with ice-cream all over both our faces

Sticking our tongues out at passers by

Let’s cry, let’s swim, let’s everything

Let’s not find it funny lest someone falls over

Classical music is boring

Poetry baffles us both

There is nothing that’s said is what’s meant

Plays are long tiresome, sullen and filled with hours that could be spent rolling down hills and grazing our knees on cement

Let’s hear stories and both lose our innocence

Learn about parents and forgiveness, death and morality, kindness and art

Thus losing both of our innocent hearts

But at least we won’t do it apart

Grow up with me"

Lima Puluh Tiga

Katakan,
andai lahirmu itu bukan sebagai seorang manusia,
Sebagai jiwa contohnya,
Izinkan aku menjadi jasad perumah baginya.

Atau katakan,
Andai kata lahirmu sebagai udara,
Izinkan aku menjadi paru paru, agar dapatku bernafas bersama sama.

Atau katakan lagi,
Andai kata kamu itu adalah si darah merah sebenarnya,
Izinkan aku menjadi jantung pendegup baginya.

Tapi andai kata kau tidak selesa dengan sudut pandangan ku kepadamu seolah engkau permaisuri, kerana ya, itu memang pandanganku kepadamu,
Izinkanlah aku bermimpikan kamu,
Atau untuk kamu menjadi subjek angan anganku.

Yang masih sama, sentiasa.